NoOne could ever replace this friendship I LOVE YOU

She came into my life not knowing that we would become best friends.. What started as playing around on the internet, and laughing and having fun turned into much more.. She is my best friend.. Someone I trust 100% ..She is like a mother to my kids.. Shes the first person I turn to when Im having a bad day.. Shes like my sister.. I love her more than she could ever imagine..

Her family has opened their arms and invited my family and I into their lives, and it feels comfortable and so very right.. From parents and brothers to aunts and uncles , neices and nephews.. I can honestly say I feel as if we have developed an extended family.

I could not imagine a day without her in my life. She is so beautiful inside and out and has the sweetest and most purest heart, shes someone that makes me appreciate who I am as a Mother, as a person and as a friend. She challenges me to be better and to live each day to its fullest and never give up..

I look forward to growing old with this girl and having so many laughs and fun..

I love you Shannon Marie O'Neill

Thankyou for being a part of my life!

12yrs gone by........Yet it feels like yesterday......Im told I should be over it...Yet I still have dreams that wake me up in a horrible mood...Told I should look at it as a good thing that we are alive.. yet everyday feels as a nightmare with the pain...I feel as if I have aged 12 yrs yet that horrid day is so vivid and it feels if it truly happened yesterday...Nothing will ever be erased from my mind as I sat there helpless and looking at my baby and wondering why..

I wish that he never have any pain or never has to feel any sort of discomfort that will slow him down.. He is on a path that is flying high..And I may be in the corner pushing him and guiding him towards an awsome goal he has.. I wish I could be more for him.. Wish I was able to be more patient with him..I would sit all day and go to the end of the earth to be there for him.. no matter how bad I may feel..

I sometimes wondere if that day had never happened where would we be now.. How differnet would our lives be.. The say everything happens for a reason.. I dont fully understand.. and even after 12 yrs I dont understand as to the reason why it was I that this happened to.. Was it to make me stronger?? Wiser?? more in tune with my family and my loved ones..? I dont have the answers.. I look at this person in this picture and look at all the flaws I have and all the mistakes I have made.. and just wish things were alot easier..

Im hoping that I can find closure this year and heal myself from this pain.. Guess only time wil tell